Rest in Peace

Today, at 3:30 A.M., my grandfather Rafael Luna died of cancer. He struggled with the disease for many months, suffering excruciating pain and multiple operations. He is loved and missed. Papay, we have been praying for you. We continue to pray for you.

Time Traveler Day

Vincent: WHAT YEAR IS THIS
Vincent: WHERE AM I
Shane: oh god. 2100
Vincent: My last Jump was way off
Vincent: TAKE ME TO THE GATE
Shane: where is the gate
Vincent: I don't know
Vincent: but I need to return
Vincent: the war is about to begin
Shane: war?
Vincent: the war against neptune
Vincent: warn your leaders neptune is stockpiling weapons
Vincent: it will begin the 5th month of 2112!
Shane: we have 12 years
Vincent: there is but little time
Vincent: earth cannot possibly solidify their defenses in less than 5 years
Vincent: THERE'S STILL HOPE FOR MAN
Vincent: begin the preparations
Vincent: what manner of citizen are you
Vincent: government man? administration?
Shane: scientist
Vincent: perfect
Vincent: search the Caspian Sea for traces of Oruthium
Vincent: there will begin the invention of the Orun Bomb
Vincent: I must take my leave before the Gate closes
Vincent: warn your collegues
Vincent: *wink wink*
Shane: thank you traveler!
Vincent: you are most welcome
Vincent: I hope to see earth return to existence in my time
Shane: can i contact u for more advice
Vincent: I am afraid I am here only for today
Vincent: and I have much to do
Vincent: perhaps I will be available later
Vincent: my future, or should I say past, is unsure
Shane: ah. well good luck
Vincent: thank you
Vincent: godspeed

My Desktop Is A Cube

after yet another hard drive crash I have decided I have had enough with Windows. With that, I formatted my hard drive, downloaded a CD, and installed Linux Ubuntu 7.10. The new distribution codenamed "Gutsy Gibbons" came out recently and it's been workin' like a charm. It took me several full days to research, install, configure, modify, and customize everything. I read for a couple of hours about Linux in general, then downloaded and installed Ubuntu. That was a day (my internet is slow, it took that long). Then I booted the next day and began playing around with everything, learning about the interface first-hand. Then I downloaded a crapload of apps and addons for the interface, like special effects or drivers. Then I began learning about mods. The final and third day, I completed my build after almost all the bugs and glitches had been patched / fixed / ignored . Here's a link to a screenshot:

http://i18.photobucket.com/albums/b129/Biyabo/cube.png

Depression

Have you ever heard of Biorhythm? I blew it off as a hoax - my geek-friendly watch, telling me what my mood would be on any day in the future? Well, the cycle such a biorhythm follows seems to be matching my life quite depressingly well. It seems that in this world it is impossible to remain happy for long. I do hope the constant depression fades before I begin to ponder suicide again. I don't think I could ever face my brother in Heaven if I were to kill myself.

I have had some girl issues, mostly results of me thinking too much. It's a curse. I cannot sleep. It's more the loneliness and the hollowness which eats at me more than specifically the lack of relationship with some certain girl or other. I don't know. I am tired…

I had begun this year with optimistic and adventurous plans in mind, with more commissions I had signed up for, declaring to fans that I would begin to write more fanfiction, and, what the hell, even post some pictures I had photoshopped up on deviantART. Then suddenly this overbearing, exhaustingly heavy mood decides to shit all over my life August through now. I have done pretty much nothing. Three or four new chapters, one commision, one fanart piece completed. Not even a third of my projected productivity by October. I sit here with Radiohead numbing my senses wondering why life must be like this.

Most disturbing is that for the first time in over five years I have had a full week's hiatus from that Dream. It has been a week where She has not appeared to me in my subconscious. I thought the final end of her haunting would relieve me; I am left devastated. I have been abandoned even by my fantasies. Or have I abandoned them? 

Home Again

    I'm home… again. It's good to be back. I've been back for a week now but since I haven't really enjoyed any summer vacation - the kind of vacation where you actually do nothing, just sit and play video games or hang with friends - until now, it hasn't really felt like home until now. Ironic that school starts tomorrow. Europe was great. Check out my deviantART page or MySpace for pictures - dA has more artsy pictures and MS has just normal pictures.

    I arrived home with a lot of headaches to relieve, such as fixing my computer (which I just completed ), doing summer homework,  working on some commissions that were overdue, cleaning out my room which I do every summer, etc. Then, I get on the computer to find that none of my chapters posted to MediaMiner.org, etc. It seems I had an uploading problem with my internet - I could view pages and recieve IM's, but my friends could not see my sent IM responses, and I could not upload files (ex. chapters). Stupid router firewall. I am reviewing the chapters once more and editing them a lot, and adding a bit more to them. One chapter for Christmas For Naruto-Kun is set to upload and I'm working on the rest. I'll have that chapter uploaded by tomorrow and hopefully the rest by the end of this week.